light a light...

as i sit in my study, with my candle lit, keeping mr C's tradition of lighting a candle during study time, i've had a little break from study and read a few blogs. and i've thought to myself, should i tell people everything? do i need to? is it necessary for people to know why i am like i am?
all i think i can say is that:
1. if it weren't for my friends, people would be remembering me, not knowing me.
2. i wouldn't be as strong minded as i am.
3. i wouldn't appreciate things as much as i do.

so in a way what happened to me, was a blessing in disguise. they do exist, and i do belive everything happens for a reason, and you can learn from everything. as much as i hate to quote a carroll college motto 'learning for life', it is really true, no matter how you take it.

hey girl, you know i've been a dreamer

following dream, i dreamed on my own

all the dreams of, the dreams that sustain me

i'm tired of dreaming alone

light a light, leave it in the window

i'm coming back, back home to you,

light a light, leave it in the window

i'll be coming back home

there are times when, i'm feeling so fearful

times when i'm caught up and crying inside

those times may find me

always remind me

of hoping to find you hear by my side

light a light

leave it in the window

i'm coming back back home to you

light a light leave it in the window

i'll be coming back home, i'll be coming back home

i love that song, it made me cry the first time i heard it, whenever i need to be picked up, or feel like shit, i listen to that song, and for some reason, it brings out a real happiness in me, it makes me appreciate things, i have no idea why.

actually, i think i know why, i think its because i was really sad the first time i heard it, and i was thinking about stuff, and then when it came on i found this really nice spot along the river, i sat down and looked through the trees at the sunset over the river, and it was the most beautiful thing i'd seen in a long time. and i realised, there is soo much more in this world to live for, there is too much to leave behind, too many people there would be to say goodbye to.

there is no way i'm doing THAT.

i think something that's nice, for anyone that wants to, is finding a spot, away from people, in the bush or down the beach or wherever, where no one can find you, a place where you can sit and just be, where you can write or draw, or play or whatever, all i know is that it's really helped me, and if you're having troubles, it could help you too.

xx