sorry. . . again...

this blog is for two main reasons. well one. to apologise. i'm sorry, for the past few days. they have been horrible. not just for me. non of this is in retaliation or anger. its just words, that hopefully mean something to you.

1. i'm sorry i ruined your few days. but you're my sister. if you were in a fucked up position i would want to know straight away. but thats me. i love you. and i will personally - as soon as i get my P's - take you to Wagga and party the crap out of that place. with whoever else wants to come. i'm sorry you had to cry your eyes out. but, never ever forget this. i. love. you. it may seem as if i'm careless and self centered. but thats not they way, i just get distracted. you do help too. you were the first one to care. and still, i think of you as the one that cares the most. having you pissed at me. kills me the most too. i don't know why, you don't know why we're connected. it's fucked up shit, you know that. and another thing, this is to anyone that reads this. love is thrown around to much. (the word) if i say it to you. i mean it. you have an impact on my life. somehow. you do. i hate how people don't take it seriously. it's a word that can change someones life in a second. it changed mine. you can't take love away. i don't think. as soon as you love someone that's it. they're in your heart forever.

2. i can't think of what i was going to write. any way. this week was shit. who cares. i'm done thinking about it.
btw. thank you kaileigh.. i love you. you added a brightness to my day. thank you cody. i love you too. you're more caring than i thought.
thank you kass.. your cute childishness makes me smile. all the time. and makes you closer and closer to being godmother. even though we both know you've got that in the bag. i love you too.

xxxxx