unwell...

it's been a really long time since i've blogged. and the last few were quite negative. though, thats how everything seems to be at the moment. no matter how much i try, everything still ends the same way. badly. i want to leave school, and ditch everything and just go hide somewhere away from everything and everyone. and i'm pretty sure i'm not the only one. i've discovered who my true friends really are, the ones that stick around during the hard times. one that stands out from the rest, and i will be in debt to them till the day i die, no matter how close or far away that day will be.
i've never been good at the whole writing really long blogs. so here's some lyrics for my mood. :)

All day starin' at the ceilin' makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin' me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'
Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwellI know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of meI'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me

I'm talkin' to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talkin' about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin' wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin', somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talkin' in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be, how I used to be
I'm just a little unwell


that pretty much sums it all up for the moment. i don't care if people think its melodramatic. it spoke to me.
xx