strawberries and milo...

life is one big hellpit...with a few ropes. the only way to get out is to work together. whether it be youself with your courage, or a group of people. from my 16 and 3/4 years on this earth, i have learnt many things.
those being:
- bravery
- courage
- strength in the toughest times
- when to keep your mouth shut
- when to speak up
- to take time for yourself
- live amongst the positive things
and
- love is hard, you have to work hard for it, you have to work your arse off...if you really love someone, thats exactly what you'll do as well.


my two best friends are in love...my brother and sister. weirdest shit, i used to think. then i saw how happy they finally were together. real love, they were best friends.
in my opinion to whoever will listen, is that you partner (bf, gf) should be your best friend, as well as lover, soulmate, what ever. having the friendshi build into a relationship is the strongest relationship i've ever seen.
they had that. it was beautiful. even though it scared the living shit out of me.
they are on rocks. live on eggshells, trying not to hurt each other. she is dealing with past issues that tend to bring themselves up occaisionally. they're horrible. he made a mistake, bringing them further up. a mistake, she knows that.
swearing to never be with someone if they hurt you the same way that a person has hurt you the worst is generally a smart idea. though considering the circumstances, its different. HE meant to. he didn't. HE is f***ed in the head. he isn't.
see the difference?
accept that she needs her space. with space, she will want to see you more and more. which equals - WIN. she will need you there soon. its how she works. can't get enough of you one minute. the next she won't have anything to do with you. i love her for that. so should you.

i love you both soo much. you are amazing people. my best friends, so different, but so similar in so many ways. ways that kill each other.

work for it. trust me. its hard. look how happy i am. but look how unhappy i WAS.
i don't care if you don't listen. i'll be stoked if you do. i won't be suprised if you hit me over the head with your folders. meh. i tried. i couldn't care less. but i know. that as you're friend and sister (and secret lesbian lover) that this isn't something that should die. it's something that needs to thrive and blossom. it's only just growing really.

love you. xxx